TEMPTATION

I've finally allowed myself a little bit of temptation. Not that I've really been yearning for it, but ya know I did a thing. This winter has been long and I've essentially been hibernating in hotel rooms or Air bnbs for the past few weeks. While in Providence we passed an ADORABLE vintage clothing/ consignment shop. At least one person a day told me that I HAD to go in and my reaction in my head was always "Well there's nothing there for me because I'm not buying clothes right now." Which was true... but I went anyway.

I walked in and pawed at the beautiful vintage garments that I would normally sift through until I found something that I like and that would fit. But having a different goal in mind, which was not really any goal but to look and explore, I enjoyed myself. I even tried on a wool blazer that was ADORABLE but also too big and completely unflattering. I realized that I can still "go shopping" and not buy anything. I can even try clothes on without the intention of purchasing anything. I don't "need" these things.

Society has definitely brainwashed us into thinking we owe the store our money just by walking into the store.  (Self admittedly I do this in yarn stores, but that's a small business and I like supporting those.) When i worked in retail we would often get disgruntled when customers would walk in and not buy anything and that is the wrong mentality. That is why we live in such a consumer driven society, that thought right there. that little voice in your head that says "I deserve this cheap $12 shirt from forever 21 because it makes me feel good right now in the tiny 2 x 2 dressing room even though I probably won't ever wear it again. THAT IS THE PROBLEM. No one deserves more clutter.

I am a self proclaimed pack rat, I own so much shit I don't know what to do with half of it and if you've ever been with me while I'm trying to clean out my room or even just clean IT IS TORTURE. And it's not torture because I don't want to get rid of everything because I do, if my mother emptied my room right now (minus the books mom) I honestly wouldn't really notice, besides the fact that it would be empty. It's when i start to look at everything and remember "that one time that I wore this and how much fun I had" or the thought of "well I don't really like this shirt but I know I'll wear it again," then why did I buy it in the first place?

I'm learning to focus on experiences as well as food. I'd much rather spend money on a fancy dinner than another dress that I'm going to have to shlep around for a few more months.

Here's a picture of the cute little vintage store:

Stay tuned maybe I'll even update this next week!